World's Biggest Idiot

I think that
for someone who
falls in love with
a person that
can manipulate people
so completely
to the point where
they have already fallen into
the way the manipulator
wants them to think
so deeply
is a fool.
that is why
my brain is in anguish
for it knows
that my heart is a fool
thereby making me
the worlds biggest idiot
for knowing that
i am a fool
and doing nothing
to stop myself.
a fool
for i try to end this
sexual attraction
these secret smiles
the silent laughter
that happens when the manipulator is around

but i cant
this bond that he is weaving is
stronger than i anticipated
he is my enemy
he is my happiness
an i am the worlds
biggest idiot.