Day 3

Hey guys!!

So I have an exam tomorrow that I, quite honestly, am not to sure I will do too well on but I know that God will make a way.  I've been studying and formed a pretty good study group so I hope all goes well.  For those out there who have some issues that they too, are a bit uncertain about or things are looking bleak, here is a song that has encouraged me many times:

It brings a smile to my face and I hope it does the same for you!! Keeping positive is something we all need to do to keep our sanity in this sometimes hectic life right?  I hope your day ended well and tomorrow would be even better!!  

On a side note, I finally went to my mcat class and man is the work cut out for me.  However, diligence is my middle name (as well as procrastination).  lol. It's okay though, I'm serious about this so I will start on the assignments given to me and keep my head up.  How many times in your life have you thought "oh man, this is it, my life is over?"  Well, NOT TODAY! God can deliver you from anything.  He will never give you more than you can handle.  That's my motto. So keep that beautiful smile and be encouraged! 

Day 2

It's day 2 that I am writing on bloggers.  I had a relapse today.  Even though I know I should be building confidence everyday and reading my bible and putting all of my faith and trust in God, this is a heck of a lot harder than I anticipated.  I started avoiding mirrors again... even though I swore that I would remind myself that I am pretty.  I started getting those annoying thoughts.  You know the one where you start to become slightly be jealous of those around you simply because it seems that your life is the worst compared to all of others.  That their "problems" only cover half the problems that you have in your life.  That your still expected to smile and sympathize with someone complaining of too many boys knocking on their doors when you have no one.  When you hear people with 4.0's complain about how they are disappointed they got a 39 on their mcat's instead of a 40.  When you want to complain to your parents and just drop out of college so that you can lay down and your room and think of nothing for the rest of your life (lol a huge exaggeration there).
Okay, let me stop being depressing.  I am one who longs to be heard, but once given the opportunity to speak, still manage to choke on the attention.  I am one who longs for attention but once I receive it, I die of embarrassment.  Heck, even on the internet I am ignored but I know that if I received a lot of attention of my blog, I'd get self conscious.  It seems as though I'm insatiable (lol).

HOWEVER, after ranting and yaking your ear off, I have decided to put these annoying thoughts behind me.  My devotion today told me that Job had it a heck of a lot worse than anything any human can attest to.  It reminded me to put my faith in God.  So therefore, I will press on.  Even if it gets hard (and believe me, it is) and even if I want nothing more than to shut my computer down right now, crawl in to my bed, and cry for the disappointment that I am half sure I will experience in the future, I must look ahead.  This is MY dream.  God will give me the power to overcome any situation.  That doesn't mean I'm given a magic wand and all my problems disappear in a heart beat. I'm saying that for now, I will look in the mirror and say "God made that beautiful girl infront of me" (and believe it!)

For anyone reading, you ARE beautiful, just like me.
Your dreams can happen, provided its what God wants you to do.
We can do this. "I (WE) can do all things through Christ who STRENGTHENS me (US)".

Rising from the Dead

I have not been on this site in so long! Though I have but one faithful follower, I will write anyway. From this day on, I would try my best to write my journey.  I've done a lot of things and thinking during my absence from this site.  All that I have done will now be marked, not day by day but some updates, for I will become a doctor.  I may regret these words later on when I look back on these posts and find that I have not accomplished my dream, but the race is now officially on.  Many people may ask me, why a doctor?  Why not a nurse or some other profession?  Even though I can't particularly convey WHY I want to be a doctor in the most elegant terms, my only answer as of now is: to help people.  My whole life, I have literally been surrounded by loved ones passing away from one illness or other.  I myself, was confined to the hospital early on in age and, through many volunteer experiences and shadowing, have now solidified my dreams to being a doctor.  On this Saturday, November 10th, 2012, I will do everything in my power to do well on my MCATs and my gpa.  I took my first practice MCAT and got a 18. An EIGHTEEN. The highest being a 45.  The national average is a 29.  As you can see, I have a long way to go.  The test is on May 30th 2013.  By that time, I will and I mean WILL be a proper competitor for medical school.  This post is just to encourage myself and others out there whose dream it is to being a doctor.  We can do this.  We CAN and WILL accomplish our dream by the grace of God.  See you all in a bit!